Last Thursday, October 29, 09, Informatics International College in different city has united to watch a great documentary that informing and reminding the youth how to vote wisely. It’s been held in the 4^th floor of Cyberzone SM Annex. Actually I got disappointed when I saw the venue because I’m expecting that the film will be shown in the cinema which more comfortable. It also had taken so long to be shown because of the delayed arrival of the guest. Although the host of the program is making a strategy like telling some poems of Benigno Aquino to entertain the crowd, but boredom really prevail in me.

            When the guest arrived, they began the program. They start the program with doxology that had been lead by Ms. Jojo Flancia and followed by national anthem. Actually I had had a hard time to focus in watching the movie because I can’t hear it so well and there’s a lot of factor that sparing my attention. It’s not rally the Ideal place.

             However, as like as the other event, it must go on. No matter what the condition is. I tried to focus and listen to the film and I’m able to understand it despite of a lot of things that cause me bothering. I had gained a lot of knowledge that I can use to make my decision more profound in choosing a candidate that will lead our country. As a part of a youth today, I have to be knowledgeable and responsible in casting my votes because I believe that the youth is the one who will make a change.

             When the event ended, I feel satisfied and information overload. I have learned a lot of new things that I can use in choosing a leader. The long wait and irritation in me has banished because the film is really worth it. Informatics succeeds in opening the eye of their student to be responsible and involve in our country’s politics.

Last Saturday all of my childhood friends and me had a get together and pool party despite of the stink rainy season that night, we still manage it just to celebrate and have fun. I thought a lot of us will agree to postponed it because of the  bad climate condition.

It was so cold and I guess its not really the good time to get wet and stay wet all night(it’s really so fucking cold that night).

Well, I know each of them so much and I believe that they are unstoppable and aggressive  even if  there’s a tsunami that night we still going…. I think it was already past 11 when we arrived to the resort, some of us was so excited to swim so from the moment that we enter to the resort  they get to the pool straight  away… Some of the boys grilled all our uncooked food like fish, pork and etc..

It’s really so good to have fun with your friends especially to those friends that know you so much and those friends that you grew up with. Times will  not always be the same, so you should  have a lot of times that you will remember when it’s turning around…

HAVE FUN BEGINNING IS ALWAYS DIFFICULT BUT IN THE END IT WILL GONNA BE OKIE.

hope you guys appreciate the video….. It’s my first subject in computer….

>It shows my love in my country…….

I had planned for this for a long time and when   I got the chance no one had changed my mind to stepback again. Well it’s so hard to be a student and to work in a full time shift, It’s really need dedication and determination.

My day starts at 8:00 am preparing myself on school, I take my breakfast, take a bath which is sometimes I skipped because It’s make me shout inside the bathroom when the cold water runs on my skin, choosing what clothes to wear and whats fair of formal attire should I carry for my work mode(yeah, I have to change clothes after school cause I don’t want to attend my class that I’m seems like the professor. that’s embarrassing). I should be on my way by around 8:30 or quarter to 9:00 or else I’ll be late again….. Every minutes to me is important, I don’t even have enough time to look on the mirror, or style or what so ever …

Good thing is when I’m on my class I didn’t feel asleep, maybe because I enjoy it. New knowledge,friends, kinds of people that I can learn something. After my class at 1:30 pm my next destination is office. And thats the time that I was feeling so sleepy, sometimes I can’t control my head to fall on the shoulder of the person seated beside me because of the strong sleepy feeling. Danm, why should people need sleep?. So as I was saying it’s needs determinetion, a mind over matter process that I need to convince myself that I can do this everyday..sighed…

At the office the first thing that I’m doing is to make a strong coffee that makes my 8 hours work energize. A small cup with a hot water and just add 1 full spoon of coffee and sugar and be ready to taste the bitter of caffeine….. at work I need to pretend that I didn’t hear my big mouthful boss to stay focused and productive though I already fell exhausted. Very stressfull, Pressure but one thing for sure this will end up soon…..

yeah its hard to do it. Very tiring and repeat it every day all over again  24/7, no time for leisure and happenings, but  at the end  of  the day I feel satisfied and have  pride for myself cause I spend one day on earth very efficient and usefull…

have you been an angel to somebody????

or to fight something even if the whole world is against???

or run just to get closed to someone so fast as a wild horse????

or to enjoy scuba diving without carrying  oxygenn at your back??

or a snake that crwal and looking for it’s prey?????? or being a reining crowned beauty queen??????

funny right??? but it’s felt good……….. You can be  anything and  anyone. There’s nothing  impossible….

last night I invited some of my friends to have a sleep over to our house, Actually we plan it a week before, so It’s very organize. You know, as ussual friend gathering, a pajama party with a bottle of beer, sharing thoughts. But you know what??? It was so fun, more than than I expected.

At exactly 1pm I’m on my way to meet my guy at the quezon city circle park to play badminton, weekends and ofcourse rest day so we have time to  make sweaty activity. Then 5pm we leave the park to meet our friend in gateway mall to have dinner. After that we decided to leave to go in our house but for a while theres a twist happened because my guy invited his friends that everyone of us didn’t meet before(a special guest). So we need to stay longer at the mall while waiting to our special guest, so we play  digital game at timezone(an amusement park)hanging around so that we didn’t recognise the time passing by.

when our special guest arrived it’s already past 11pm, then ofcourse introducing each other,very cassual.Then atlast we’re on our way home, although we want to approach our special guest  a small talk while heading our home we didn’t got a chance the only one that is approaching him is my guy because they are friends..As in nothing…..

Then when we arrived in our house I didn’t know that all my childhood friend was free that night to join in. So the more the merrier , we started to drink,you know new sets of people that meet in a co-incidence. The usual pajama party turn to superb fun sharing of thoughts. after some bottle of liquor, some of us are drunk which is I admit that I’m one of that drunk but I have a strong capacity when it comes in liquor. 3am when my some of my childhood friend decided to leave and 3 of which I Invited is also decided to sleep including our special guest, ofcourse they sleep at my room while me and my guy is  still drinking at the living room with the others. At my room we didn’t know that sometings happening. whats happened in my room well I dont know….

Maybe 4am when we decided to stop and take a rest. Then we woke up at 10am and were really shock that our special guest and 1 to which I invited(the single one)is very sweet to each other.. You know it’s like a magic because when the first time they see each other is like nothing then after a night they seems like be with each other for a year…. Everyday is a surprise you can never tell when will your other half(i mean partner) cross your way….

well…………VERY ROMANTIC…

I’m happy that god make me an instrument to found those guys they other half….

this past few days I always find myself on to thinking what where I be next, what should I be some years ago or do i really have a plan for myself??. I don’t know why the future always get me confused. Maybe for some reason I’m afraid to be left behind, to be nothing or to feel that I’m alone and no one cares, but I believe that’s   will never gonna be happen to me. Well, we never knows, some people say that the only constant in this world is changing. So, no such things in this world is have assurance . Question is, How sure I am???

When I was a kid  I want to be a doctor when I grew up then a week ago I realized that I want to be an architect than a doctor then anather week ago a lawyer instead. Now, I know why when Iwas a kid theres a lot of profession I want to be, I’m not dreaming for a profession, I’m dreaming for the assurance of my life which is absolutely impossible. I feel insecure when I see a person that well dressed, I mean tie and coat entering a nice building vicinity, you know , a good career. But then I realize nothing to be insecured of, good carrer not means assurance. Maybe he has a career but not a perfect life. Well at this moment I didn’t look  to the window of “what if,what if”( i mean future) because I notice that it didn’t help me anyway it only cause bothering…..

Why don’t enjoy every single day of your life?? eat a plenty of spam,flakes in oil tuna, tapsilog (beef,fried rice,egg) ,drink whisky with your friends. So why worrying tomorrow and ruin today. Atleast when you got nothing to your future you still have the happy memories of what you have done today. It’s a long way, what matter is how you make everysingle day memorable…….

i just want to share all the phrase that i always hear from my boss every time i get to work….

first when my feet entering the office vicinity of course my colleague is in the lobby having their last butt of cigarette  to calm down and be ready for another frustrating day. We need to make sure that we are on our desk 5 mins before our call time because  our foreign boss will gonna start his meeting and the first word that will come on his mouth is like this “production yesterday is so pathetic it’s unacceptable, were working on numbers if you can’t do the job then resign”.

Do you think that phrases can help??? just imagine the tension that filled in that room with that kind of boss.. well, I’m gonna tell you that kind of management is totally bullshit… His only increasing the pressure and our stress and how can you work more effectively if you are thinking your boss might gonna shout at you at any moment…

after the first two hour we have a coffee break and before the break will over he will gonna start a short meeting again and the only word that he will going to say is “we need to pick it up… forget what happen yesterday, today is anather day and tomorrow is a misery so don’t let yourself stuck on what you produce yesterday, I’m telling you we need to pick it up..” so of course we will start working again…

after two hours again is our lunch break and this used to be happen during our break… Ofcourse we will going to eat our lunch and a  more lot of time of having chit chatting on our colleagues. What’s the latest,rumors, some are offering an short order like a meal for tomorrow, beaty products, etc.. And before the break will about to end our boss will gonna start a short meeting again, a signal that our instant holiday is over and be ready for the end of the world, exage??? no it seems like…. And what he gonna say??? well “guys your here to make money. do you?(of course we will gonna say yes, although we don’t want to answer any of his questioned) so guys please do it with enthusiasm no one will gonna listen to you if you sounds like under on your pillow. Basic pay cant makes you happy it’s the commission.” Well yeah it’s true but they did’nt see that we already striving hard to make money and all you’ve got by doing that in return is a fucking pressuring phrases..

and after 3 hours again to our desk all we want to hear is his “rapid-up”. It’s the signal of our freddom again on 8 hours at work. End of your being boss in my life. Well as he said tomorrow is a misery, so maybe the next morning i went to work he is been fired by the owner because of our low production. Well, we still got the last laugh……

human-nature

                   a lot of people looking for a satisfaction and i’m not denying that i’m one of them but sometimes we can’t understand  why we are always craving for something but have you try to ask yourself why??? Don’t worry you’re not a nuts i think it’s called the human nature….

                  some of us looking for a lovers although they already have a partner. i dont know why they makes their life complicated.. maybe thier being human is measure through having a lot of sex experience…..

                  Rich and influence people are fighting in the name of money, the more money the more power you can have. They don’t care of the people they use, for them being human is measure through having a lot of money…..

                  poor people always being sensitive. Alaways saying that they can’t afford a lot of things thats why  they excuse even if they become a criminal. I don’t see the point why they want to end up like being a decease of society…. there’s always a room for a change life is a wonderful gift of god but it’s also can be a a life of curse, it depends on the person how to live the life that they have. 

                 some of us is an idol, a role model, a man who always think for the others first before his/her self. the questioned is how long and how transparrency it is…. but i do hope that people like this is to have more blessing thats why they have a lot of things that can share to their country men especially to those who really need a helping hand.. 

                 If you think you’re lost and confuse there’s nothing wrong to slow down, seek answer for your own question and be credible to prove that your answer is good not only for you, also for all the human being especially to those person who lives in your world.

are you familiar to the so called law of attraction?? actually i’m not aware on that before and i get doubted when i watched the documentary “THE SECRET” that profound and explain it more deeper..

I get doubted because the documentary say’s that if you want something all you have to do is to wait because you will have it soon, like a bunch of gold that drop to your side, a gift of god,, sound silly right??? But it makes sense,, It’s so very hard to set your mind to the positive side especially when u get dump to a lot of mistake and problems, so the easiest way is like this, ” I need to work for this day so that I will get a reward from god”. I’m not telling you to do the same way but its my own way to set my mind into positive side and cope with problems especially in financial…

you will never gonna be what you want to be when you are thinking you can’t do it and you will never gonna be that good looking if you are thinking your ugly. You must draw a line between the looser and winner. The looser always says “it’s so hard i give up” and the winner always says “it’s so hard but i know there’s a way to get through”. So, are you a winner or a looser?

when you know what you want and your mind is set to the positive way,, presto!! you can be anyone who ever you want and you can do whatever you want to do. Because you have  direction and you will never notice that you work hard on every day. the universe will arrange it for you.

just start your day lively, a smile to start your day. Laughter is the key to make the whole day alright.. It’s my own way of practicing the law of attraction..