a long way…….

this past few days I always find myself on to thinking what where I be next, what should I be some years ago or do i really have a plan for myself??. I don’t know why the future always get me confused. Maybe for some reason I’m afraid to be left behind, to be nothing or to feel that I’m alone and no one cares, but I believe that’s   will never gonna be happen to me. Well, we never knows, some people say that the only constant in this world is changing. So, no such things in this world is have assurance . Question is, How sure I am???

When I was a kid  I want to be a doctor when I grew up then a week ago I realized that I want to be an architect than a doctor then anather week ago a lawyer instead. Now, I know why when Iwas a kid theres a lot of profession I want to be, I’m not dreaming for a profession, I’m dreaming for the assurance of my life which is absolutely impossible. I feel insecure when I see a person that well dressed, I mean tie and coat entering a nice building vicinity, you know , a good career. But then I realize nothing to be insecured of, good carrer not means assurance. Maybe he has a career but not a perfect life. Well at this moment I didn’t look  to the window of “what if,what if”( i mean future) because I notice that it didn’t help me anyway it only cause bothering…..

Why don’t enjoy every single day of your life?? eat a plenty of spam,flakes in oil tuna, tapsilog (beef,fried rice,egg) ,drink whisky with your friends. So why worrying tomorrow and ruin today. Atleast when you got nothing to your future you still have the happy memories of what you have done today. It’s a long way, what matter is how you make everysingle day memorable…….